Down
the street. I think Lange can go on whenever his goods come. I was at the
Treasurer’s Office. Bridges paid me 8 dollars. Sent letter home & one to
[my cousin] James Hollister in Memphis
.
Yesterday
got a government boarder. Today some men rented ___ as good for wood & will
pay me 10 dollars per month. Down the street.
Working
at home. Afternoon, got permit for Lange.
Sunday.
Yesterday, got a note from a Lady in town who is acquainted with [my
cousin] Lucy Stratton. Invited me to call. Did so today [but there was] no one there. Down the
street. Nothing new.
Went
up to Botsford. Down the street.
Down
the street. Weidemann drunk. He can get me a place with Hollender. Yoest here in
the evening. Nothing new. I can’t do anything yet.
Cold. Down
the street. Saw Hollender. Said he would take me for a bar keeper when he
opened. Saw Fauche. Nothing new. I feel sick.
Very
cold. Down the street. Nothing new. At Schreifer’s. Fauche was speaking
yesterday as if he could get a permit & he would take me as a partner, but
he can’t, he tells me. So one disappointment comes after another.
Down
the street. Nothing new. At Egan’s. Did not learn anything.
Cutting
wood at Mrs. Fulton’s. Paid rent. Down the street. Nothing new. Mary quite
sick.
Sunday.
At home all day.
Cold.
Down
the street.
Templeton came up & wanted me to stand at the door at the theatre. Went down at
night. Got home after twelve o’clock.
Lange
came about five in the morning. Did not sleep any good. Had a quarrel with
Julius Bridges this morning. At Egan’s. At theatre. Bell got mad because
Templeton & Addis hired me without asking him & said he was part owner
of the concern & he would attend to the door himself. He said that he should
not be fucked by a limber prick. I
went down and told Addis. He told me to stay. I went into the office with _____.
He talked of his old times, how well he got along peddling, in getting some old
cribbed fellow to buy something when before someone had told him that if he
called on him he would be kicked out. Addis seems to be very pleasant,
gentlemanly, & communicative. But Bell is a very fart in the gourd. He …is
a perfect whiffit & wharf rat.
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Too
cold to be at shebang. Down the street & across the river looking for a place. Borrowed
twenty-five dollars of Koenig. Very cold. Mary still sick. Big Fa__ing left
today. I feel sick.
Down
the street. All forenoon, did nothing. We got saloon [over the] river [but the]
rent [is] sixty dollars. Egan told me he could not lend me any money. I saw
Yoest, he could not [lend me any money;] nor [could] Schreifer. At Schreifer’s
saloon in the evening. Rubbing Mary tonight. She is getting worse all the time.
I have been rubbing her for several weeks with liniment. I don’t think she
will live. But Oh God, grant that she may be spared yet awhile. I hope she will
get well. Oh God, forgive her & bring her to a better mind & prepare her
to die, if it be thy will to take her hence. But Oh God, spare her yet if it be
thy will. Do not take her yet.
Fixing
up Saloon all day. Took in three dollars & a half today. Saw Flower tonight.
Asked him to lend me some money. He did not have any to lend. Mary quite bad
off. She can hardly walk. I do hope she may get better.
Sunday.
I never, I think, spent such a dull Christmas in my life as I have today. I have
no money to buy anything with. At saloon part of the day. Mary still very bad.
Wrote letter to [my] brother Jim.
At
saloon. Business pretty good. Mary very sick today. Rather warm & pleasant.
At
saloon. Business dull. Mary sick. Sent for doctor. Borrowed 5 dollars of Egan to
pay for some medicine. Mick & another have bought out a saloon for $1700
& go into it. It takes in from 80 to 100 dollars a day. Egan is lucky or I
am unlucky. My sins are now coming upon me. I am reaping the harvest of
inequity, poverty & trouble. Oh God, grant that Mary may recover her health.
At
saloon. No business at all. Rather cold. Mary still sick. I do not know whether
she will recover or not. Egan is in the new saloon. We can’t get a license
yet.
At
saloon. Up till 12 last night with Mary. We cannot get a license to sell
[liquor]. Feel badly. Oh God, grant that we may do good business. Oh prosper me.
God grant that Mary may recover from her sickness. Restore her to health.
[Twenty-four year-old Annie] Blanche Scott was married the other night to Lt.
Col. George O[scar] Sokalski,
formerly on General Steel’s staff. Lange feels badly because he cannot get a
license & today he got drunk.
Cold. At
saloon. Lange talks badly about me. Calls me a fool &c. I was boozy today. Sat up with Mary till two in the
morning.
At
saloon. Schreifer told Lange that the reason he could not get a license was
because he was in partnership with me & that DeKay said so. Schreifer said
that Dekay said I came up to him & wanted to put out of my house that
innocent family of Bridges & asked Schreifer what Lange wanted to do with
that Goodrich. I think everything is working against me. I can’t do anything,
nor will those in power give me anything. Oh, I do not know what will become of
me. God grant that I may get something to do. Got grant that Mary may recover
from her sickness. Restore her to health. Oh God, take her not away now. Spare
her, Oh God. Business pretty good at saloon today. Took in twenty-seven or
twenty-eight dollars.

December
14, 1864
My
dear brother Ralph. We were glad
to hear from you today but sorry to hear your business prospects were so
poor. Would it not be better to leave Little Rock
altogether & come north? I think if you were here you could find
employment that would pay better than being there. We all think so and Ma
thinks you ought to come home. I think perhaps your health would be better
here. Cannot you settle up your affairs there & if you have not means
enough, Steve can send some if it is safe. But my advice is to leave there.
James Hollister was home the last I heard. His business was broken up just
as yours was. I would rather be here than at Memphis.
[My
husband] James concluded after the difficulties there in Kansas
not to come for us until February so we are here for the winter. They have
had a great deal of trouble in Kansas. Every man over 18 & under 60 was ordered out to meet [General
Sterling] Price & about 100 were taken prisoners from Shawnee
County
and many of them were old neighbors & acquaintances of ours. Price in
his retreat kept them six days & they were robbed of money, overcoats
& boots & some days had to travel 40 miles & wade streams
sometimes waist deep & then lie down in their wet clothes without
blankets. Price parolled them in six days but they had been treated so &
almost starved too that they went home only to die. Our nearest neighbor
when we lived near Topeka
was one & James went down to see him & found him dying &
preached his funeral sermon. Several had died right about there & others
very sick.
Gurd
[Horton] & Mary are up tonight. They have a very pretty baby – Fannie
Augusta. Steve killed hogs today – two for Ma & two for himself, which
he sold. They are small but his two came to over $50.00. Pork is very high.
He got $16.00 per hundred. He paid the taxes today also. In all they were
$135.70. And last year [they were only] $29.00. They raised bounties for
volunteers which made the taxes so high. Mrs. Harriett Mosher has come to
make a visit for the first time since they moved away some ten or eleven
years ago. Aunt Lucy [Fiddis] and [her daughter] Lucy are well. We visited
there last week. Ma has a cold & cough but is better than she was. Frank
Platt is very feeble.
Write
often as you can, Ralph. We often talk of you and wish you were here. And I
would certainly leave there. With much love as ever, your affectionate
sister, --
Augusta
December
14, 1864 Owego [New York]
Dear
brother Ralph. We received your letter of December 1st today. It makes
us feel so bad to have you so low spirited and hopeless. I would not stay
there another day if it was possible to get away. Come home, and you can get
a place to do something I am sure, either at Washington, or Mr. Bristol may
have a place for you. You can get into some business where you can earn
something. Do not stay in a place where everything goes wrong with you as it
seems to have been always at Little Rock.
George
Stratton asks why you do not come home and get into some business here at
the North. If you have not the means to come, [your brother] Steve will send
you the money if it would be safe to do so. Or if you could do any kind of
work to get money & settle up everything and come home. I don't know
what to write to cheer you. To be sure, I have always lived in our quiet
country home and do not know much of the rough and tumble of the world, but
I find even here there is a dark and a bright side to most of my troubles,
and it is best, & one can, I have found, look upon the bright side. You
have stayed there hoping for the best, until now you seem to have got pretty
low on the ladder. And now I would turn a cold shoulder on the place and
leave the people who will not appreciate your worth. We have looked for you
this fall, and only a few days ago Ma thought she saw you coming over from
the railroad. But it turned into someone else before they got here.
We
are very busy getting ready for Christmas. We are going to have a tree, and
are making little things for the children to hang on it. [Your sister] Mary
is coming up and perhaps Lucy [Fiddis] will come over. I wish you could be
here.
We
are going to feel anxious about James [Goodrich]. He expected to be back to
Topeka by the middle of November. I was so glad Augusta and the children are
here. There has been so much trouble there since she came. It will be lonely
enough when they go back. I wish they could live nearer home.
Helen
Bristol is going to be married next Tuesday to a Mr. Richardson who lives
near Portage. He is in the army and was very badly wounded in October. Since
he was wounded, he has received a Captain's commission. Janet McCallum Patch
is very low with consumption. She is home now and they do not think she will
live to go back to Towanda again. We hear that Mr. McCallum has sold his
place. He does not live with his family at all [and] has not been home in
two or three years. Have we written to you that Hat Wallace & Ike Horton
were married?
I
hope you feel better than when you wrote. But I should close up my business
if I was in your place & come home. Write as soon as you get this. If
your partner had cheated you once, he would very likely do it again. All
send love. Goodbye. Ever your affectionate sister -- Sarah