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I know you must be lonely without us

Near the end of July, James finally received a letter from Augusta which told of the details of her trip from Leavenworth, Kansas Territory, to her hometown of Owego, New York, with her two-year-old son Johnny in tow. While in Chicago, they took a side trip to Woodstock, Illinois.

St. Louis [Missouri]
Friday, [July 15, 1859]

My Dear Husband [James],

I hope you have received my letter written from Leavenworth. I have taken quite a different route from what I expected when leaving home. My through ticket would have taken me on a long trip through Illinois & the agent here has changed it & given me one to take a boat to Alton & then by railroad to Chicago where it is due tomorrow morning at seven. We take the boat here at four this afternoon. We reached St. Louis about nine this morning making a quick passage. The water is low too but we had very good company & so far have got along well. It has been very warm & John has been a constant companion. He is getting used to it & is a better boy, not quite as fretful. I dress him cool as I can. I keep well – do not eat the ________ ________ ________ careful. Have slept well both nights on the boat. They have run all night too.

Monday morning, July 18th. We are safely at [your] cousin George [Griffing’s in Woodstock, Illinois] this fine morning & both [of us are] quite well. I do hope you are well & getting along well. We left St. Louis about four o’clock Friday. In about two hours, we reached Alton & went right on the [railroad] cars & kept moving all night & at light next morning were in Chicago. I had to pay 25 cents to be taken from one depot to the other & had just $1.55 left at the Woodstock depot in Chicago. I felt anxious & worried but then I would tell the ticket agent how I was situated & ask him [to] trust me until I came back. I asked the price of a ticket to Woodstock & behold it was $1.50. So I had all my worry, fuss & anxiety for nothing. I paid my fare & had five cents left which I spent for John in apples. They were for sale all along the road & he had some given to him at different times. My fare thus far has been:

To Leavenworth   $5.50
Staying over night   2.00
Fare to Chicago   16.50
Omnibus fare            .25
Fare to Woodstock   1.50
Apples                      0.05
                       
       25.80

I reached Woodstock just before noon Saturday, [July 16, 1859] & went right to Mr. [Josiah] Dwight’s who lives close to the depot. All were well & seemed glad to see me. It is very warm here – much more so than in Kansas – although here at cousin George’s there is a good breeze blowing.

Cousin George [Griffing] came down to Mr. Dwight’s in the afternoon, but I was tired & so stayed there until last night when they came for me in a buggy. Today we are going to see Mrs. Burlingame who lives near here & tomorrow some of them will go with me to Crystal Lake to see [your] cousin Franklin Griffing. [1] Expect to start at nine o’clock on the [railroad] cars & stop over until the two o’clock train & then get into Chicago to take the night train East. [Franklin] lives close to the depot at Crystal Lake. Cousin George will have some money ready for me. Oh dear! How much it’s going to cost – it’s too bad. We shall go soon & I will finish this after our return.

Cousin George’s wife & myself have spent the day at Mr. Burlingame’s and had a very pleasant visit. Mrs. Burlingame sent her love to you & Mr. Burlingame also. They own forty acres near town & have a young & very beautiful grove of oaks about their home. She has two children – one a girl nearly 17 and a pretty one named Lucy. Her boy Willie is five & a good little fellow. It has been 15 years since we saw each other and she looks so old and broken, but the same happy, cheerful smile & pleasant words are there. He preaches in Woodstock now. Please send him one of your Conference Minutes directed to Rev. A. G. Burlingame.

Cousin George has the finest calf I ever saw.

Mrs. Dwight has four children – Charles, Julia, Eddie, and Josiah. Cousin George’s five boys [are named] Theodore, Willie, Addison, Freddie, and George.[2] [George is the] baby, born the Christmas before [our son] John and is another little fattie. They say he & John look alike. Currants are ripe & oh how good they taste. There are but few apples here & corn is very low – cut off by frost. I hope there will be a letter in the [post] office for me when I get to Owego. Write all about how you get along.

Ever your affectionate,
Augusta

Topeka [Kansas Territory]
July 27, 1859

My Dear Cutie [Augusta],

I feel better. I was right glad to get your letter this morning from Woodstock. I was very anxious after you changed your route at Leavenworth fearing something might happen to you. This warm weather and I began to look for a letter much sooner than I ought and I guess I worried quite as much as you did. But today it has come announcing safety, thus far. I shall look for a good long one from you in a day or two where I trust you are enjoying yourself right well. What do they say about you – that you bear much resemblance to the young girl that left there near four years ago, for better or for worse, or that you are just her shadow or an improvement? What about [our son] Johnny? Will they claim the little sun browned, white-haired border ruffian boy as any kin? Is he a good boy now?

You did not say anything about yours or Mr. Stratton’s relatives at Woodstock. Did you call on any of them? I knew you would like the cousins there, only I guess they thought you made a short stay. I should have thought you would have stayed a day or two longer. I am afraid they will think the most you wanted was the money. What did cousin George [Griffing] say about our business? Did he say when he would settle the rest? Has all been paid in to him yet? How much did he let you have? Did he say whether or not it was drawing interest? And did he say my accounts were right?

We are having quite cool weather since the rains. I have been sowing buckwheat today – the patch below the calf pen – and ploughed and harrowed in that east of the millet. When I came from town this morning I found a large loaf of bread on the floor near the backdoor done up in a yellow pocket-handkerchief. It was light & spongy and I have just been eating some in milk for supper. It’s first rate. Do you want some cucumbers pickled? There are lots of them on the vines I noticed today.

How much did it cost from Woodstock [Illinois to] home? Find out what the fare is from Owego through to Leavenworth direct. See how much you paid over in fare. I think your fare high from Chicago to Leavenworth. You must make all a right good visit for me. Give my love to all inquiring friends.

Have you seen [my] mother yet? You must not forget mother’s likeness as well as [my brother] Sammy, [his wife] Melly, and [their children] David & Ella on one plate. You must spell mother occasionally if she still has to sit all day long with towel in one hand and fan in the other.

Have [your brothers] Ralph or Steve procured a cage for your bird? Has [your sister] Seddie concluded to come back with you? What a grand idea it would be for Father Goodrich and mother to come out too some time and see how and where their children live. I think such a trip would renew their age and make life’s later hours linger more pleasantly. And then Mary, i.e. our Mary – i.e. your Mary – i.e. Mary Goodrich or Mary Griffing, if either of them should only come and teach our “young idiots to shout” just for one summer, what an uproarious noise there would be and how pleasant on all hands. And then if [your brother] Ralph’s shingle protruded from one end of the Topeka House, advising the people where they could learn how to get out of almost any scrape, how handy it would be for us; i.e., me. And then you know we should have some hope of seeing [your brother] Steve sometime, wouldn’t we? – Finis.

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Pages 1 through 4 of James Griffing's Letter
Kansas State Historical Society

Topeka [Kansas Territory]
July 28, 1859

[Dear Augusta,]

You ask how I get along? Well the best I can with just as little indoor work as I know how. I generally get coffee for breakfast, boil an egg or two, get two or three onions, and sometimes cook some codfish. My ham is all gone. I notice the potatoes are growing finely and soon shall have plenty of them. I milk one cow (the oldest) and use most of the milk so that I shall not probably churn more. I have plenty of butter yet. Have churned more than I have used. I have not washed either time yet, i.e., garments.

The hen in the keg hatched about ten chickens so that there is about thirty of the smallest. The largest are just large enough to fry and I expect to lead some of them to the block, as occasion requires. It is a very cool pleasant day. The air is clear and everywhere things look beautiful. The morning glories in the garden are beginning to blossom; there are two colors, red and purple. They beat the cypress running. The cypress blossom is crimson.

Saw [your brother] James in town when up. He is through at Ward’s. Has had his likeness taken and intends to send it soon. May be you will get it before this. He continues to work for Lindsey on other jobs. Our neighbors are all well. They ask about you every time I see them, hardly stopping to ask about myself -- how I poor lone mortal flourish. After trying to convince them that I am of some consequence, I tell all I know about you. -- James

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Pages 1 and 2 of James Griffing's Letter
Kansas State Historical Society

Owego [New York]
August 7, 1859

Dearest James,

Our people think I get my share of letters for a few days. Just three from you & one from Aunt Mary [Goodrich in Hartford]. I hope before this you have heard of our safe arrival here. I knew you would be anxious if we came to St. Louis by boat & I felt worried too. But as we came so well, think it full as good a way for us as the other would have been & the fare was the same both ways. We are all well here. It is Sunday eve & I have just put [our son] John to bed & this nearly our bedtime. Stephen, Sarah & myself rode over to meeting this forenoon & Ralph & Mary walked. Mr. Peck preached. The church is a very neat & pretty one. The pulpit is at the back end so that we do not have to go in facing the congregation. The gallery is over the doors & the congregation do not turn around & face them while singing – quite an improvement. This afternoon there was preaching at the schoolhouse by Tom Nichols, a Presbyterian not yet ordained & a son of the Canewana Nichols.

This forenoon John stayed with ma & was a good boy. This afternoon we took him. Mary Griffing was down [from your mother’s hillside home today]. Says [your] Mother is not feeling very well but is able to be about. She goes back to her school in the morning. Rhoda [Goodrich] Stiles & husband were at meeting. She is very thin & changed, but they tell me I look worse than she, and that I am hollow eyed, but that I am looking better than when I came. The folks did think that John was almost a colored boy when he came, and I presume would not have acknowledged him if I had not been along. But they think him improving in looks, and his boyish ways seem to please them. He talks a little better. For instance, as I have not yet weaned him, he calls for his “dinner” which sounds like “dinnah” – and soon as he sees any preparation for riding, says, “I ide, I ide” instead of ride. I asked him tonight to send a kiss to papa & he gave me a sweet scotch kiss. He wants to kiss all the younger ones he sees. He behaves very well & keeps well. Wish you could have eaten with us.

James Goodrich’s likeness has not come yet – hope it will before long.

Tuesday evening. Sarah, John & I have been to Aunt Mary’s today & Mary came after school, Ella Griffing coming with her & here to stay tonight [with us]. Ella is a very prettily behaved girl. Says she has commenced a letter to you but it did not suit her & she tore it up. I told her she must write. Says all are well. Mary went to her school Monday morn. Your letter to Mrs. Sarah A. Goodrich came yesterday – better be careful how you write – Mrs. or Miss & not make a mistake.

Pa & [my brother] Steve with one & 20 hands are at work in the oats. They have to reap a great many of them as they have fallen down.

After school last night, Mary & I walked over to the [Owego] Village. [We] called at Aunt Betsy [Goodrich] Platt’s. Aunt Betsy, Aunt Fanny & Frank [Parmele] are at home now. Mrs. Dr. Hay is there on a visit. They made a great many inquiries about Kansas. I am going there before long to make a visit. They have a few of the Lawton Blackberries & think they are not as good as recommended. Will it pay to take grape cuttings or small roots? I can get some there I think. I bought you three pairs of gloves for 34 cents, the very cheapest I could find. The cheaper ones were entirely too small. I send one in this letter and another some other time. Am sorry you lost your suspender. Your old ones I think are in that barrel that stood by the window upstairs. They are near the bottom & are ready to wear I believe.

The cucumbers please put into a strong brine. If you have alum, put in an ounce or so & it will not take as much salt as without. If no alum, make the brine strong enough to bear up an egg. Hope you have good success. I think the hens do well.

I am glad you get along as comfortably as you write. I know you must be lonely without us. We do not make much headway visiting, as I have had my clothing to fix, &c making considerable work. Mrs. Marion Catlin’s daughter Celinda died with consumption & was buried Saturday. Lathrop Finesdale’s wife (Charity Brink) is just alive with consumption. They live in Ephraim’s old house.

Aunt Mary [Goodrich] writes to have me come & make them a good visit [in Hartford, Connecticut]. Says Mrs. Knapp & family are at Mr. Beach’s. That Alfred [Beach] is very low & that Mrs. Beach is worn out both bodily & mentally & is very low in the retreat. It is dreadful. I would like to go there but cannot, unless someone else supplies funds. I don’t know what you will think of me but I did not say anything to cousin George [Griffing in Woodstock] about your matters. I hoped he would [say something] to me & expected he would, but waited in vain. He told me to write & he would send me more if I wanted. Or what was better, come that way [on my return trip] and he will let me have some [money]. I have been sorry [ever] since that I did not say something of how matters stood. They would liked to have had me stay longer there but knew I must be anxious to come home & did not think hard of me at all. What had I better do about going there?

[Sister] Sarah says she will answer her letter before long. Uncle George Stratton’s daughter lived a few miles out of Woodstock & I could not very well go there. Cousin Joe Goodrich & his relatives have all moved to Sterling, Illinois. It has not been very warm any of the time since we came.

I received the letter to Mr. Smyth, [the Editor of the Owego Times,] but have not sent it & thought I would not. He did receive at least one of the other letters you wrote and I did not feel inclined to take him this, thinking he did not care for it. All send love. I do hope you will get along well. I often think of & wonder how you can get along.

Ever yours,
Augusta

The glove is so bulky I will send it in a paper.

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Pages 1 through 4 of Augusta Griffing's Letter
Kansas State Historical Society

Topeka [Kansas Territory]
August 7, 1859

Dear Cutie [Augusta],

I went to town Friday morning expecting I should get another letter from home. Yet it came not. Yesterday evening I walked over to Brother Curtis to see if one had come and still none. He said I looked disappointed, but I am sure I could not have looked worse than I felt. When at town Friday, Mr. Gardiner came to me and said Charley Bowen would like to have me come over, and as it was just what I was calculating to do, I went and found him very sick. [He is] having a run of the bilious fever, hardly able to speak, [and] is obliged to have watchers. He was a little better the day I was there but seemed is in so much pain. His good companion seems nearly worn out. She has no girl [to help her] and I am afraid will get sick herself. I took care of him for a while and had her go upstairs to rest herself, but after awhile she came down not having slept a wink. Said she could not. The children are very good or she could not possibly stand it long. I hope he may get better. Dr. King, homoeopathist, attends him.

And what do you think has happened at Ex Naylor Dow’s? Why one morning last week Mrs. Dow found herself the sole possessor of a bright-eyed little girl. How pleased they both are. They are both so fond of children. Mrs. Dow thinks she never was thankful before. She is getting along very well. That Lady (Mrs. Goodale) who stayed at Mr. Rice’s during his absence is acting as nurse. They think of calling the little one Grace.

When up [in town], I bought me one of those lanterns I have been wanting so long at Mr. Hamilton’s. I did not know but I might be awakened some of these nights by the blowing of the stage horn and you know I should want something to light my company in. But more particularly I got it to go out and protect my chickens. A few mornings ago I found 8 [of them] dead behind and in the corner of the barn. I expect the work of a polecat. They have eaten up all of Bowen’s [chickens]. He put some strychnine in an egg and placed it where they could get it handily and poisoned three – an old one and two young ones – two or three others keep under his house and he cannot get them out. I would do the same but am fearful I may poison some of the chickens.

And now Cutie, I only wish I was with you today and could see yourself and my darling boy. How have you been and who all have you seen? And do you get any stronger than when you left? Is Johnny a good boy? Be careful not to let him have his own head and way too much. A little discipline and care now will be worth more than a great deal by and by. Is he kind and affectionate still, and do you suppose he would know me? Has he been sick any since he left? And have you? Have you visited my mother yet? And does she look as healthy as when you left? Has she seemed to grow old fast? I wish you would write quite often. I don’t think I ever was so glad to get letters. I wish I could get one every time I get mail from the [Post] Office, which is two or three times a week. How many letters have you received from me?

I went out with Brother Curtis after grapes. We only got about one pail, half-full apiece. I put mine on paper upstairs to dry. I guess she made hers into pies as she gave me a nice pie to bring home last evening as well as some ginger cakes. She is real good to me and I wish you could bring her some acceptable present when you come. I can’t cook anything to taste good. Even pancakes which I used to make first-rate taste doughy and heavy. And my biscuits are heavy, won’t rise, and are scarcely eatable. I got two tomatoes ripe this morning for the first, which I sliced up & put sugar on and were quite good. Corn will soon do to eat. I don’t know when we shall get potatoes. They were put back by the dry weather.

This paper is dirty and hardly fit to write on. Please let no one see it. I keep very well. Mr. Crawford’s boy was mistaken about Curtis & recently only went to fasten up the schoolhouse. Have made no bargains as yet. Mr. Naylor wants to sell and Mr. Curtis to buy but cannot agree upon terms. Tell Johnny his kittens began to play about. The pigs are growing finely. Weather is fine. I expect the threshers in 8 or 10 days. Kiss darling for Papa. Keep well dear. Write soon. Yours ever,  -- husband James

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Pages 1 through 4 of James Griffing's Letter
Kansas State Historical Society

[1] Franklin Griffing, b. 20 September 1814, was a brother of George Griffing of Woodstock, IL. Franklin and his wife, Lodema Thompson were living in Crystal Lake, IL at the time but later moved to Colorado Springs, CO.

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Franklin Griffing (ca 1860)

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Franklin Griffing (ca 1880)

[2] George Griffing’s five boys were: Theodore Leonard Griffing, b. 4 July 1840, William Henry Griffing, b. 10 March 1845, Addison Griffing, b. 16 January 1848, Frederick Murray Griffing, b. 4 March 1852, and George Butler Griffing, b. 25 December 1856.  The three eldest boys all enlisted in the federal service during the Civil War. The eldest, Theodore, served in the 36th Illinois Volunteer Regiment, also known as the "Fox Valley Regiment," Company H (a.k.a. "The Woodstock Rifles") from September 23, 1861 until he died on November 21, 1862, from wounds received at the Battle of Perryville. He was promoted to Captain of his company after the Battle of Pea Ridge, receiving news of his commission on September 5, 1862. William  -- the second eldest son – also died in the service in 1865.

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Captain Theodore L. Griffing's Gravestone
Woodstock, Illinois

The following diary entry of Wallace P. Benson, who served with Theodore Griffing in the Woodstock Rifles of Company H, provides a first-hand account of the Battle of Perryville in which Theodore was mortally wounded leading his Company:

October 8 [1862] Perryville.  Our regiment was got together and drawn up in line of battle when the artillery opened fire. The second Missouri charged on the enemy, driving them back. The fighting was mostly by artillery until about two o'clock. We were not in the fight until towards night when orders came to take position. Our battery occupied an elevation guarded on either side by the remainder of our brigade. Our regiment was stationed twenty-five rods [a little over 100 yards] in front of the battery. We lay upon the ground until the enemy came within range of our muskets when the crashing of musketry was tremendous. The roar of cannons could hardly be heard above that of musketry. I was wounded in the left hip after discharging my piece sixteen times and was taken form the field. As I left the field our boys commenced cheering and I knew victory was ours. Our loss was not far from three thousand. Nearly two hundred wounded were at the hospital, where I was taken, with all manner of wounds.

A couple of days later, the following letter was written by Orren Benson -- a brother of Wallace Benson who also served with Theodore Griffing in Company H. The letter was written to family and friends at home in McHenry County. It was published in the October 18, 1862 issue of the Woodstock Sentinel.

In Camp on Battlefield,
Oct. 10th, 1862

Dear Friends. I doubt, ere this, you have heard of the terrible battle which we had day before yesterday. It was terrible indeed. No pen or pencil can picture it.  Our regiment never experienced anything like its equal before. But few of the 36th [Regiment] were killed, but quite a number were wounded, Wallace among the rest. He is not so seriously hurt -- was struck with a musket ball in the left leg, about 8 or ten inches from the body, the ball glancing and coming out of itself, and I presume he will get a furlough and come home after a little. [Captain] Thode Griffin[g] is also wounded. Nine of our company were struck -- none seriously. I presume you will get all the particulars before you get this. I have not time to write much. I stood under heavy artillery and musketry fire for about 3 hours at one time, and didn't get a scratch. Now let me tell you that we thrashed the miserable rebels severely. I don't know what the name of the battle is. None others that you know are hurt.

I have no more time now, for I am going up to see Wallace. Don't worry about Wallace -- he will be all right.

We cleaned old Bragg out right.

In haste, Orren [Benson]

The following letter was published in the Woodstock Sentinel on November 12, 1862 after the battle of Perryville which took place on October 8th. Private Wallace P. Benson, the author, was wounded when the 36th proceeded down Springfield Road in order to secure water.

Hospital No. 12, Louisville, Kentucky
Saturday, November 8, 1862

Having recovered somewhat from my wound, I undertake to acquaint the readers of the SENTINEL of our condition in the hospital. A month has at last passed since the battle of Chapal Hill [Peters Hill] with what of anguish hundreds of wounded now lying in this city can attest. The [boys] were very fortunate, as they were exposed to the fire of a whole brigade secreted behind a fence and cornfield, while we were in the open field, supporting a battery. Had their [secesh] guns been well aimed, but few would now remain.

Capt. [Theodore L.] Griffing's wound is far more serious than was at first supposed -- the bone in one leg being seriously injured; yet he is doing as well as could be expected. Here I would make known the fact that many were sent back to this place with broken limbs, the surgeon not knowing they were broken. Such neglect is scandalous -- there is no excuse for it. How would such neglect be looked upon at home?

[First] Lieut. [Morris] Briggs is wounded in the shoulder and there is but little improvement. It is badly inflamed. [Private Henry O.] Murray and [Private Edward] Kapple are doing well. The remainder of our company that were wounded are with the regiment, the wounds being slight. I do not know so much of the other companies, as they are scattered around in various hospitals, but I think they are all doing well.

We have been very poorly supplied with rations, and at times must have suffered had it not been for the ladies who supplied us.  There has been a complaint sent in to headquarters and we are faring better now. It will be a long time ere we shall be able to rejoin our regiment, and there is not a little complaining because we are not allowed a furlough.

Col. Williams, of Illinois, who was sent by Gov. Yates to look after the wounded, called on us. He assured us that Governor Yates was going to Washington, and would intercede in our behalf, so that we could get furloughs; but we have heard no more from that direction, and will have to lie in the hospital for two or three months yet. An effort, at least might be made, I think.

This city is overflowing with the sick and wounded -- the late cold weather being more than many in the new regiments could well endure.

The 36th Regiment passed through Bowling Green on the 4th instant, and ere this are in the vicinity of Nashville. They are in good health, I learn.

Hoping to hear something soon respecting furloughs, I remain, as ever, yours etc., -- [Wallace P. Benson]

On November 26, 1862, the Woodstock Sentinel ran the following death notice:

Death of Captain Griffing -- Well might the Sentinel be clad in mourning habiliments this week, containing, as it does, little else than announcements of the death of those who have died that their country might live. In other places accounts are given of soldiers who died of disease. The purpose of this article is to announce the death of Captain Theodore L. Griffing, of Company H, 36th Regiment Illinois Volunteers, who died on Saturday last (November 22nd), of a wound received at the battle of Perryville, Ky.

Theodore Griffing enlisted in the "Woodstock Rifles," a company raised by Capt. M. L. Joslyn, as a private. Immediately on its organization as Company H, 36th Regiment, he was chosen Sergeant, in which position he acted at the battle of Pea Ridge, Ark. By the resignation of his superior officers he steadily rose in rank, until, about a month previous to the battle of Perryville, he was commissioned as Captain. In that fruitless fight, Capt. Griffing, while bravely leading his men, was struck just below the right knee, by a Minnie ball, which shattered the limb, and also slightly wounded the left leg. Although he received every attention -- his grief stricken mother being with him continually -- the wound finally caused his death in a hospital at Louisville, on Saturday night last.

Geo. H. Griffing, Esq., father of the deceased, left Woodstock on Monday, for the purpose of seeing his son, but must have passed the body on his return.

Mrs. Griffing, and the corpse, arrived here last night. We understand the funeral is to take place on Friday. We hope it will be largely attended, and suitable respect shown the remains of the gallant dead who died fighting for us all. Alas, perhaps we may be the mourners next time.